My thoughts and hopes and dreams and aspirations and all that stuff..

..Ask me if i am comfortable in this interrogation chair..

2006-07-18T20:00:50Z

Bored and Waiting..
1. Made out for more than 3 minutes? Yep
2. Slept in a different bed? My favorite places to sleep
3. Made out in a movie theatre? Nope
4. Made out in the forest? Hmm.. maybe a campground?
5. Thought your cousin was hot? Oh yes, my stepcousin dan, and i quote my aunt on this one "he looks like that guy, whats his name, ashley angel?. And i tell you she couldnt have been more correct.
7. Slept naked? Honestly cant say i have, at least in recent memory
8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex? nope
9. Gone over the speed limit? Yep
10. Painted your room? all by myself!
11. Drove a car? yes
14. Been dumped? no
15. Stole money from friend? no
16. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yea
17. Been in a fist fight? oh gosh no.
18. Snuck out of your house? nope
19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? ISnt that just about the epitome of a crush...
20. Been arrested? nope
21. Made out with a stranger? Well, in some cases unfortuantly yes, and it others, yes ;)
22. Left your house with out telling your parents? Hmm, i dont think so
23. Had a crush on your neighbor? Oh yes, my unspoken childhood loves.
24. Ditched school to do something more fun? I've ditched school to do things far less interesting.
25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? welcome to freshman year of college.
26. Seen someone die? no
27. Been on a plane? yea
28. Kissed a picture? i dont believe so
29. Slept in until 3? again, welcome to my freshman year of college.
30. Love someone or miss someone right now? oh yes
31. Have you ever really been in love with someone? Im not quite sure
32. Made a snow angel? of course
33. Played dress up? yupp
34. Cheated while playing a game? yeah.. i kinda have a cheating problem when it comes to playing games
35. Been lonely? ooh havent we all
36. Fallen asleep at work/school? ugh..forensic biology aka, mid afternoon nap session
37. Been to a club? yea
38. Felt an earthquake? Well, i didnt know it at the time, but yes
39. Touched a snake? ick, yeaa
40. Ran a red light? nope
41. Been suspended from school? no
42. Had detention? haha ooh detentions make me miss mr. willard..
43. Been in a car accident? yep
44. Hated the way you look? Sure
45. Witnessed a crime? Probably more times than i am aware
46. Been lost? Once in boston.. that was awful..
47. Been to the opposite side of the country? Yup, wonderful place over there, that west coast.
48. Felt like dying from embarrassment? A couple times..
49. Cried yourself to sleep? Yep
50. Sang karaoke? I dont think so, but ive come close a few times.. (thats why i have wonderful friends who stop me from embarrasing myself)
51. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? yup
52. Been to Europe? not yet
53. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? of course
54. Kissed in the rain? Oh, im sure. just not the romantic aww kissing in the rain, type way
55. Sung in the shower? Sometimes..
56. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes, but i dont remember who
58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? Well, it was a street sign pole..
59. Ever gone to school partcially naked? haha uhm nope.
60. Been a cheerleader? not officially, no.
61. Sat on a roof top? hmm, im sure at some point, somewhere
62. Didn't take a shower for a week? never went a whole week. 3 days i think is my max
63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone? Or at all..
64. Played chicken? good times in the pool
65. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? ive been bribed into a hot tub with my clotehs on and pushed into a lake with my clothes on, so does that count?
66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? OH! The highlight of my nyc trip, well, he didnt say i was hot, but the juice cart guy in trump towers (complete with english accent and everything) said he thought i was very cute, and i was such a loser and didnt hear him the first time, so he said it yet again. Ah.. if i had a dime for every time that happened id have.....a dime. So it was special.
67. Broken a bone? Nope
68. Been easily amused? Thats me for you..
69. Laugh so hard you cry? All the time.. its the best.
70. Cheated on a test? a few times, but ive let people cheat off of me, more than i cheat.!
71. Forgotten someone's name? Occasionally!
72. Blacked out from drinking? i dont think so
73. Played a prank on someone? hahaha yes..
74. Gone to a late night movie?yep
75. Made love to anything not human? i believe that is a psychological disorder i learned about last year! But no.. i havent
76. Failed a class? Nope! I made sure to get a D-.
77. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? Nope, cant say i have
78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? ummm, i dont think so?
79. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no
80. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? I rode on a float!
81. Thrown strange objects? umm, i guess that depends on what is considered strange.
82. Felt like killing someone? probably, im sure.
83. Thought about running away? no, i dont actually think i have
84. Ran away? no
85. Had detention and not attend it? nope
86. Made your parents cry? i think so
87. Cried over someone? Well, i dont cry over cheese or broken chairs
88. Owned more than 5 sharpies? haha umm... yes?
89. Dated someone more than once? I guess?
90. Had a dog? On number 3
91. Owned an instrument? yup
92. Been in a band? oh yes, 7 years..
93. Drank 25 sodas in a day? ah i dont think my body would tolerate that.
94. Broken a cd? im sure
95. Shot a gun? an airsoft gun. because you know, im all bad ass and everything
96. Been online for more than 5 hours? Oh i wouldnt doubt it
97. Hurt yourself on purpose? Hmm, wouldnt quite say im into self inflicted pain. I try to avoid pain .
98. Have gone to church? not recently, but yes
99. Have you ever hooked up with a member of the same sex? Well, how do you fine hooked up?
100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral? Ive thought about how id like to be remembered, if that would go under what people would say at my funeral..

okay, NOW its finally time to go to the gym.

btw, i apologize but i will cut this later.

cuteypie0829 @ 2005-04-06T22:18:00

2005-04-07T02:18:57Z

Oh and today is Zach Braff's birthday.

So now everyone, lets all give him a big jewish...

Happy Birthday!!!!!!

cuteypie0829 @ 2005-02-05T21:57:00

2005-02-06T02:58:49Z

Why is it that i feel most drawn to the people who least like me? And why is it that i have the greatest desire to help people who desire no help from me what so ever?

Why must things be so frusterating!

cuteypie0829 @ 2005-01-28T12:09:00

2005-01-28T17:09:18Z

cuteypie0829 @ 2005-01-25T22:17:00

2005-01-26T03:18:31Z

i'd also like to add that yes, i accept the fact that i am one big fat hypocrite. So blah!

cuteypie0829 @ 2005-01-12T19:04:00

2005-01-13T00:05:09Z

The application process has concluded. What a relief.

cuteypie0829 @ 2005-01-11T21:04:00

2005-01-12T02:07:34Z

Agh someone please make this horrid sickness go away!!!!!!!

anyhoo.. hi to everyone direct to you from sick world. I sadly say i wish i could go to school, im sick of watching daytime tv and not liking spaghetti.. its a really sad way to live.

I am so behind in school work.. ugh yuckers.

okay well i have to go sleep and stuff.

Just wanted to say hellooooo.

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-12-04T22:19:00

2004-12-05T03:20:09Z

The Survey Where You Say The First Word That Comes To Mind. Yay.
Created by -ambiguous and taken 37605 times on bzoink!
What comes to mind when you hear..
..snow?	Christmas
..rain?	mud
..tornado?	wind
..summer love?	camp
..Jon?	huhh
..Mike?	haha Turner
..Shea?	Ms!
..banana?	Monkey's
..dizzy?	Christina
..Laura?	Frogs
..Juan?	Jose
..car?	Little
..white?	Snow
..peppermint?	Green
..New Found Glory?	Heather Wong
..placebo?	Plastic
..orange juice?	acid
..candid camera?	Flash Bulbs
..sister?	Sister
..brother?	eric
..hate?	Red
..school?	Front Doors
..President?	Bush
..football?	Andrew
..rap?	Jimmy
..pop?	The egg shaped head
..rock?	Old
..punk?	Eric
..sex?	Infinite
..death?	Black
..baby?	Pink
..duuude?	Pot
..the end?	Finish Line
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That Grinch.. with his softie side.. what a man.

2004-12-03T03:41:17Z

yay! Julianne got my letter. What happiness. And with what speed! Oh those speedy mailmen. Except for when they are delivering bathing suits. Then they take forever... What with they're trying of things on and what not.
Silly mailmen.

Ahh my ickynes has subsided for now.

Now to read feel good books and forget about stupid people's existences. :)

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-11-30T22:18:00

2004-12-01T03:21:08Z

So what if im a loser. I dont care what you think anyways :-P :-D

You've changed it all. You've changed.
I cant decide which i like better.
All i know is i like this half better.
You'll never know how you used to look and how you look now.
Funny how your eyes can change soo much in such a short time.

:) I laugh.

Ho deciso che farò tutte le mie entrate questa settimana in italiano. Solo perchè desidero scarso un effetto questa settimana. Relativo stato una settimana realmente emozionante. Ritengo realmente variabile per qualche motivo. Realmente forte. Qualcosa feltro havent di i per un istante. Ritengo molto indipendente. Il relativo realmente sconosciuto. Ringrazio il cameron per quello. In un certo senso sconosciuto, tutto il crap i sperimentato con quello lo ha incitato a rendersi
conto come il dipendente io ottiene sui tipi e come mi rendono il
tatto, e come quello è così irrazionale ed io non debba fare quello più. Molto emozionante.

Stasera era fascia di jazz. Ho ottenuto il fondente, il taht era molto emozionante. Una sorpresa grande. Realmente sono stato confuso circa la cosa dei soldi, ma ha ottenuto tutti riordinati, ma kinda poco troppo un ritardato.

Le zone sono andato oggi al controllare ed ha apparentemente un cuore
difettoso. Anche se è un cuore molto vecchio e così molto comprensibile. Quanto triste. Ive vivo mai con lei! Pazzesco per pensare circa. Giusto come il mio albero piccolo i miei genitori piantati quando sono
stato sopportato. Isnt che cute. Didnt fanno quello per c'è ne degli altri capretti, appena me.

Corridoio di studio domani. Sempre un punto culminante del mio giorno:) devo rifinire il mio laboratorio durante allora, ma lo shouldnt è quel Male.
Devo lavorare anche. Reaaaaallly non desidero a. YUCK.
Ahh così lingua graziosa. Anche se potete essere infastiditi, NON MI PREOCCUPO. Affare.

Ho scritto a julianne una lettera lunga piacevole oggi, così se può capire questa, verrà presto!

Approvazione, ora è tempo di andare Jane colto Eyre. Così BUON LIBRO. se voi havent colto esso, colto esso. Anche se un certo parallelo è sconosciuto. Forse il relativi tutti in mia testa.

Buona notte voi gente bella.

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-11-28T21:02:00

2004-11-29T02:05:31Z

Carin is by far the coolest jewish girl i know.

Not that i am separating her from the rest of my friends due to her religion.
Its just the way it is.

Its on the uphill:) The happy your gonna lose weight at the top of this and get all sorts of credit and admiration and all that wonderful stuff uphill. As opposed to the your sad your gonna die of over exursion and tiredness and look pathetic uphill. See the difference?
I really shouldnt eat the gingerbreadhouse glue.

WAH!

I love you and you and youuuuuuuuu

2004-11-28T22:05:25Z

I am determined to get all my christmas shopping done BEFORE christmas this year!! Woo yay for determination! So you peoples must help me. I am like the worst "what do i get you for christmas" thinker. I never have a clue what to get anyone!!
So.. if anyone wwants anything specific do share :)

AHHH i wanna give everyone a big huge hugg :-D

Is it bad that i am looking forward to going back to school (Only to see everyone though.. then ill be all set to go back to vacation!)

Okay well time to finish up my homework and make a gingerbread house and then read my really good book.

Ahh lovley books put me in such a wonderful mood.
I wish i had enough money to buy all the wonderful books in the world, i would be such a happy person.
Wow my fingers are typing this all at extremely fast speeds, but i suppose you cant see that.. Anyhoo i think i have rambled enough. I am never gonna get to sleep tonight!
Perhaps ive found the one thing that makes me super hyper!!!!!

haha how silly :)

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-11-27T21:21:00

2004-11-28T02:23:21Z

just saying hello to all those out on lj land today :)
Have a nice rest of vacation!

Things are finally swell. Lets just keep it on the problemless stressless level for a while.

:-D
I miss you all!!!

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-11-09T21:27:00

2004-11-10T02:33:10Z

I am so selfish. But i just feel like i always make my way to the bottom of the pile. I just want to stay in my room and read all my chapters of bio i need to and then stay in there and live off of chicken caesar salad. I dont feel like seeing anyone. (..oh julianne!! you can help me with that one ;) )
Im so tired of the lies. But im more tired of falling for them. And i thought i was good at telling the difference. Maybe i just hoped a little too much.

I cant stop grinding my teeth and its annoying. Ive never done this before.

haah. ...who would have thought it would come down to such a silly thing.. I guess the real truth comes out over time.

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-11-09T16:07:00

2004-11-09T21:09:24Z

actions speak louder than words.. who the hell cares what you say.

im crabby, and yes its because of you.

(maybe)

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-11-08T22:22:00

2004-11-09T03:23:49Z

And to think, it was a finger tap away.

Black and White coming out my ears

2004-11-05T02:20:14Z

I am sooo overly stressed! This is insane. Its all going to my neck! i know.. what a strange thing to say.

My house is so freezing and i cannot stand it. I hate living with people who this 60 is nice and toasty. UGH NO!

I wish i had the ability to end all the stresses in my life for just one day. just a day of complete relaxation and worry free. ah.. fantasies.

I am on the verge of just becoming a snappy mean person who is constantly crying and i do not likw it.

But in other news..

Hockey game tomorrow. Could be fun. or couldnt. We shall see
Out to dinner with the fam saturday. Yum yum.
Hopefully i get to to some wonderfull hot tubbing action on sunday. :-D warmness...
I need to do some shopping and i wnat to buy a book. A reaaaally good one. If i only had time to read it..

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-11-02T20:15:00

2004-11-03T01:23:02Z

This is just getting so ridiculous!

Ive dragged it on to long, and now it needs to come to an end.

I know what i need to learn, but it just doesnt seem to happen.

Why do people need to be so kind and cute. Cant they just be ugly and mean? WHy must they push my buttons and drive me insane. Cant they just do as the rest and choose to ignore me. It would be so much easier. So much easier..
But i know i dont want it that way.

Ive been selfish recently. Too selfish. It really needs to just end.

Im just not ready to let go of anything.

Maybe ill let the president decide.

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-11-01T11:53:00

2004-11-01T16:54:28Z

A4 STUIDY HALL MAKES LITTLE KINGS DANCE.

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-10-29T13:59:00

2004-10-29T18:06:38Z

Today is Friday! Yahoo.

Cameron gave me a flower today and it was very nice. :( Will did not.
But thats okay!

I have to work tonight and i reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallly dont. with a capital R or D or W?

I took my math test today and it took me from 11:20 to 12:50 which sucked.. a lot. But now its done, and i hope i did well!

I want to go to the party, but i am not sure if i will want to go when i get done work. Its been so exhausting latley. Just so busy and no stoppnig time. Im sad that Dianne isnt working there anymore after next week, but i am so extatic that Pam is being fired! :) I mean.. yaeh..

This weekend is time for lots of decison makeing and homework doing.. I will do it! :-/

Im in Ms. Edmonds room and the smell of gingerbread is just overwhelming.

Im being distracted and its really annoying. So i will end it here.

Have a nice day!

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-10-28T20:36:00

2004-10-29T00:38:37Z

I feel so bad.

I wish i was different and had the ability to be strong and just end. But i cant. And its ruining such amazingly wonderful things.

Some people deserve soo much. MOre than i could ever give.

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-10-26T21:25:00

2004-10-27T01:33:37Z

Gah SOO much to say. But instead my stomach hurts so i will only say a few true facts.

- I had a wonderful/horrifying/enlightening/worrysome girl chat with Smylin and CHelsea today. One that will forever stay in that room and never leave it!
- Chris now calls Cheez Itz Cheez Fucking its. because that is cool.
- Ms. Edmonds is way to in love with her dry erase boards..
- I called Cameron smelly when he worked and that caused RJ to nearly die in my car for some reason that i am still not so sure about.
- I went seriously nostalgic at a pizza place.
- I have way too much homework
- i am not going to school tomorrow.

In other news, i had an enlightening moment while driving home from jazz band. I know what i need to do. I need to be selfless for once.. Perhaps think about others in my situation.

Yup.

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-10-22T11:12:00

2004-10-22T15:16:40Z

.. well last night was fun!!..

or not.

Well it seems i have become more stupid and went down 20 points in my SAT's which REALLLY sucks. I perhaps shouldnt get so emotional over it but i am. Everyone is getting the scores i wanted and it really sucks. Just added crap onto the already large pile.
Ugh why did this all need to come at the same time..

I just keep getting whacked with more and more horrible things .All of which i was at the control of changing. Now i am just seeing all the reprocussions.

I want things to be simple again..

Im really sorry for being so annoying and complainging so much latley.
Just ignore.

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-10-21T22:18:00

2004-10-22T02:21:43Z

..someone please kill me..

i dont deserve to be living right now.

I dont know what to do..

I wish someone knew what to do.

cuteypie0829 @ 2004-10-20T23:21:00

2004-10-21T03:22:54Z

... I shouldnt care!...

.. no!.. i shouldnt care..

*NOT CARING!!!!*

... I care :(

(ps. i promise this is the last post of the day.. just lots of drama in my mind to day)